I cant believe it

Well lastnite I had to say goodbye to people at work but I said goodbye to Tom 2 x and that was probably one of the hardest things Ill have to do in my life because I think when you fall in love theres never goodbye ... and so we couldnt really say goodbye. but it was goodbye for now. I just wish I didnt love him so much.. but today im going to lunch with my mom and dad to panera bread then hanging out with my girlies.. until i have to leave tomorrow and say goodbye to my old life and to everything up here in new york and start a new life in virginia. I know its what I need to do for myself. Thats what Tom told me.. that I need to start whats doing best for me for once because for the past year I could say that Ive been living for others and not taking care of myself and thats what I need to do. Im scared of losing people but I know that my true friends will stick by me" thru thick and thin" and I know i wont lose them. I just wish I knew that 100% sure tho so that I wasnt like this before im leaving. My life is going through craziness right now and my life is changing drastically.. I can say its exciting but Ill be allrite:-/.. I just hope that everything goes right for me... and that I start taking care of myself.. love ya babycakes